Saturday, September 27, 2014

Rambling Again

I should really be writing my English essay right now, but I got very distracted by gorgeous pictures of Rome. As you may or may not know, I went to Rome in a school tour about a year and a half ago, and I fell head over heels in love with the place. The atmosphere, the food, the culture. It may be because it was the first time I've ever really been to a foreign city as big as Rome and I may be biased because the people I was with were amazing people as well, but to me it was perfect. To me it was so perfect, in fact, that although I want to spend some time in Rome and living there is a fantasy of mine, I don't think I would ever really go and stay there. I don't want to ruin the perfect memory I have of Rome. I don't know. I'm just rambling.

And since I'm here already anyhow, let me take this opportunity to apologise again for the lack of content these days. Sixth year has really made looking for the time and even for the motivation to write on this blog a really difficult thing to do, especially during the weekdays. On the weekends, the only free day I really have is Sunday, and writing is the last thing that comes to my head because I'd much rather stay in bed or spend some time with my friends (which actually rarely ever happens). But I still don't want to completely abandon blogging. This was my release when I was feeling stressed. This was my instagram and my snapchat and my facebook. So many memories tucked away in files from 2010 and I don't want to just delete all of that. I still like writing. And I love story telling. So maybe my motivation to blog will come back again. I don't even know if this makes sense. I just feel like there are so many thoughts on my head at the moment and I need to get some of them out.

I went to my very last Open Night in my secondary school about a week ago, and it made me very emotional. I suddenly realised that that was the last time I was ever going to sing with the choir at the open night, the last time I'm ever going to show parents and future students around, the last time I'm going to experience that kind of chaos and that feeling of surrealness when you're in school during the night. It got me reeeeeal bad. I know I complain about school every waking moment of my life, but I really had very good experiences in my school. I made amazing friends, met amazing people, and learned so much not just in academics but in other things like debating and leadership and of course friendship. I deal very badly with nostalgia, although it's one of my favorite emotions. I just know I'll be crying pretty bad when the last day of school comes. Help.

Let's see... what else what else. I think that's pretty much it. I have literally so many things to do I barely have time to breathe. I'll do my best to keep this blog cause I have actually plans for it, but I don't know if I have time. We'll see won't we.

Hopefully I'll see you soon.